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baby steps

February 3, 2020

You can hurt me, you can leave me, but you can't take my memories away from me.

I'm honestly much angrier at myself than anyone else. I just can't believe I let myself fall so hard and so fast. I think the creative mind works very differently from most — It gives in to fantasy and tries (works) to turn it into reality. In most cases, that's actually a great thing. You're constantly reaching, learning, growing and scaling new heights. Sadly, not everyone aims toward the same standard of what they want to be real. As they say, you don't create anything new without first dreaming it up.

On a much happier note: I've got even more music plans this year, and a hell lot of work to do if I want to turn this year into an ambitious, fruitful, meaningful and eventful one. I'm also venturing into teaching drama for the first time thanks to the recommendation of my friend, Riley - That should be interesting (and more money for me, yay). I have 4 more singing lessons to go before I look for a new singing teacher, and piano and guitar lessons are on the way. Good luck to me. # hard work pays

Oh, did I also forget to mention that I'm moving out? Yup, I'm moving out and staying with Mark and his friend Rachel till December. But first, I've got to find a sofa bed that won't break my bank because my mom doesn't want me to pay movers to transport my bed from home to Rachel's place if I'm only going to be there for 10 months. Moving out (and paying for myself) is a pretty big deal for me, so I'm rather excited and also heaps scared that I'm going to end up bankrupt by year-end. Hopefully that won't happen. My lease ends in mid-December and I haven't decided yet if I'll be in Singapore over New Years' or if I'll travel overseas (Although, I did promise myself that I'd celebrate my birthday in a different country every year till the day I can't travel anymore - So we'll see). I think I might be a little bit crazy... Baby steps, Alyssa. You don't want to die of anxiety. # werk