October 8, 2020

Yet another day of not feeling great. What's new? I don't want to have to vie for someone else's attention, I have been doing that basically all my life and it gets tiring, frustrating and disappointing. I felt like I had to do that in my previous relationship as well, but I do realise that given the long-distance aspect and not getting to see each other as often, I might've gone a little overboard. Still, I don't want to have to repeat myself 1000 times over saying "Please, love me." There are too many painful reminders. I am strong, but I am not that strong and neither am I that desperate. If you want to walk away, then I will, too.