Maybe life is throwing me a lifeline, but here I am working double-time to sever the ropes because I don't believe that it will save me in the end. Is that just self-sabotage? I can't seem to shake the feeling that I can't trust anyone new or let them in. I can't seem to be vulnerable right now, and I still don't believe you. Why? I miss the person I was before everything fell apart. It seems that I'm still picking up the shattered pieces of myself laying naked on the floor. Kintsugi — I can do that. I can heal from my past and emerge stronger and more beautiful than before. I just need time. A whole lot of time and a whole lot of patience.