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back to the grind

July 19, 2020

Lately, my mind hasn't been in the right place. Ever since we started filming Stuck With You, many things in my life have shifted. Most significantly, the routine I settled into for 2 months during the Circuit Breaker period is now broken. Not being able to have a consistent schedule is really taking a toll on my energy and motivation levels, and I'm having a hard time focusing on work-related tasks at hand. Hopefully, this isn't a sign of the beginnings of a depressive episode. *fingers-crossed* I just don't feel like myself, and even smiling is difficult sometimes. That's weird for me. Either I have too much on my mind, or too much on my plate. Simple things now seem like Herculean tasks, and I was doing so well just a month ago. I hope my mood starts to pick up because I can't stand this feeling any longer. I just want to go back to being me — happy, loving, adventurous and carefree. I thought ice cream would make me feel better, but it didn't... (Pistachio is still my favourite ice cream flavour though!). Maybe I need to be out in nature more. I miss travelling. I miss my friends overseas and constantly discovering new things. Maybe this is just a feeling of claustrophobia and overwork (?) Who knows. Either way, back to the grind! C'mon Alyssa, you got this. *fighting*